Sometimes when I’m writing I think to myself that I should write a memoir about my life. I’m not sure it would be good enough but writing is something that I’ve always gravitated towards and every good writer probably has some sappy life story that makes them who they are today (rolling my eyes at myself). It’s somewhat true but I really do just enjoy it and many other things too. So why have you come to my blog post you might be asking yourself at this point? Well, I’m here to tell you, so keep reading!
Society, yes I dare say it.
As of late, I’ve not been fond of it. I sometimes just wanna curl up into a ball and never come out from under my sheets but I wouldn’t be typing this awesome post right now, now would I? It’s been a rough year and if you struggle with any illness such as depression or a lack of vitamin D then I guess you've been having “a blast.”
I think in today's society we are trying to be non-exclusive with one another. Like for instance body types. They have this campaign among us all trying to tell us that every "body" is a beautiful body and we are beautiful no matter what size we are. There is nothing wrong with that at all. I think it’s great even! It's just I’m gonna squash that with my 9-foot size shoe and say I really wish I could believe that. I sometimes don't like what I see staring back at me more often than not. I think that is pretty normal, especially for a teenager. From my life and point of view beautiful has always been something that I struggle to fully see within myself.
I sometimes feel like magazines and tv shows/movies are trying to sugarcoat this perfect world that we don't really live in. I just think it’s funny how you can promote self-love and then be that awful person who talks about someone behind their backs.
I suppose I should say this, It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to still learn to love yourself even if you end up frustrated with yourself the next day.
As humans, we go through phases. We are so complex and wonderfully made that sometimes looking at others makes us envious of what we don't have and keeps us turned away from what we do have. I also believe these beauty standards that fall upon all of us in some way or another are hard to obtain. Now the media and society say you're gorgeous either way but if you can relate, you still feel like you have a checklist to make sure you’re the ideal body or smile to have the title of BEAUTY. It’s difficult for me because I myself struggle with how I see myself and trying to feel like I have to be a certain way for someone to like me or be my friend is exhausting. Sometimes I think if I’m not good enough for my looks then I won's be good enough for my thoughts. This isn't the case… but our minds can certainly make us play tricks.
So point blank I’m not a saint by any means. I must say that we are all unique in our own ways and that is exciting. If you feel like you're the finest piece of cake that there ever was then own it because at the end of the day if it doesn't make YOU happy then what was the point? I need to listen to myself more and rather what others tell me. Can you relate? You're allowed to have your bad days and good days, not every battle is won on the first try. Just remember to try your best, try to love yourself, be confident in the human you are, because you're you and you are stunning!